Amorous of a Scoundrel

The idea that he's with somebody
It brought me to total jeopardy
Tearful days, sleepless nights
Darkness- in absence of light.

Wrath started embracing my soul,
As my heart ailed by a brawl.
Blue eyes turn to dark gray
As my love is nowhere to stay.

You'd told me you'll never leave
How fool I am, I solemnly believe
Our romance shall be lamented
That I was taken for granted.

Sooner, forgetting us will be a boon
Later, our story will be out of tune
Now, Here I am, facing the truth
That you and I will be impossibly sooth.

Unforeseen Handsel

“Congratulations Sheena! You’re now a mommy”. It was actually said to me and to my mama by an ob-gynecologist, I was then lying in that clinical bed having a consultation because of some physical changes they made noticed. I sighed that was one of unforgettable moment in my 20 years of existence. Due to my surprise, I didn’t know what to feel. First, it’s because it was an unexpected pregnancy, secondly, I was too young to have a child. Lastly, I’m still studying at PLMar then. My parents including my Lola and my older brother, expect me to finish my study without any problems because I managed my basic education with academic excellence. And during my highschool years, I make them proud by presenting my certificates that noted me as a good student in school especially in social studies subjects. But because of my impetuosity, they forget those achievements. I dismayed them all, especially my Mama and my Papa. There comes a time that I haven’t recognized as if I wasn’t existing. But my Lola was there to make me strong by telling me some courageous words, though she managed to hide her rancor.

               

         She seriously told me and to the father of my child, that since we now have a child. We should automatically prepare ourselves, to be matured enough to face some circumstances on parenthood, though were too young and too afraid to experience those. Actually, it was a very, very hard task for both of us, why? Simply because we didn't imagine that we will become parents. We live our lives only for ourselves; we wake up each morning for our own sake. Can you imagine that? Those things will be vanish because of that inabstinence. And As a woman, take note, a pregnant woman, I was still surprise that I will carry a life inside my womb. Hard isn't it? But thanks for the people around us, to my parents, to my Lola, to my in-laws and for all of them who helps us. Every time I got chance I always thanked them for what they have done, not just for me, but for us, three. I will never forget those goodness. They still give unconditional love onto us, though I and my boyfriend did a mistake.

                I’m so thankful to God that He blessed me with those people. All of them act as a guide: if we need to correct misdeeds, a teacher: if we have to know something about being a parent that we still didn't know, and to those things we need to know, a counselor: if we do have some sort of misunderstanding when it comes on running a family relation. From my viewing lenses, this life-changing event of mine was filled with excitement, struggles, conflicts and happiness.

Parenthood Perks

“The most important thing she'd learned over the years was that there was no way to be a perfect mother and a million ways to become a good one”- Jill Churchhill. 

The thought I used to live by when my Unica Hija came in our life. As we all know, parenting is a major task and duty. Nurturing our child is the hardest yet greatest occupation here on earth, I believe. From infancy, the time you have to wake up each dawn just to feed a small creature, you have to put them asleep with a lullaby song and a soft cradle, they are hundred percent dependent to us, parents. Babies are very fragile creature, so handle them with care. 

To childhood, this was the time; they can now play hide-and-seek when nap time and bathing comes. They now know how to throw tantrums, which is very hard for us, especially, for first-time parents. It’s the time we should introduce, that schooling is fun. 

To adolescence, although they’re dependent but not much, unlike the first two mentioned. There are some changes on themselves, physically and mentally as well. They can now, do strolls with or without us. It’s the stage where self-confusion and identity crisis strikes, so as a parent, you have to act as a guidance counselor, in order for them to picture themselves vividly once they have decided in a certain situation. If they open a problem, make sure you advise correctly, and avoid hurting them with your comments as soon as possible, remember, your simple negative comment can ruin their confidence and view in life. 

Lastly is the adulthood, where they can now earn money without the help of us, parents. They can now stand on their own. Just like us, they will also raise their own family and build home. The parents’ role or our role there is to serve as a role model and a guide for them to become an ideal husband or wife, and a loving parent to your grandchild (their children) as well. Most of the cases, grandparents are spoilers, they give everything for their grandchildren, so you have to take everything in moderation, remember, “anything that is too much is bad”. Know your limitations as a grandparent, to avoid misunderstanding with your child and his/her spouse. Don't be a meddler, as long as the issue can be resolve by the couple. But when they seek help, give them a hand, help them as you can. Always open your doors for them, take each sides when problem rises. Tell them that God will not leave them alone. He did not give us circumstances to become paranoid, but to mold them to become a strong and faithful person. 
Remember, parenting is a major hard task. It’s the hardest, yet greatest occupation here on earth. Being a parent, has an endless duty, you will do everything just for your children. You are lucky, because you are blessed by the heavenly father to touch lives, be thankful, you have been experiencing or you will experience, or you had experience this hard yet fulfilling journey.